Friday, October 15, 2010

Glory to Glory!


There is a line in a Jonathan David Helser's song, "I will walk out the dreams you have placed in me and scream down the walls of fear". I am holding on to that line with everything in me right now. I feel a shift around me ... in me. I don't know if you've felt it too?

Life as I know it is no longer the same. Even though some things that I would love Him to change, haven't been. I ... am ... closer. I am now feeling Him move in my day to day experiences.

I was asking Papa, asking myself, asking the air around me, "How do you live the thickness of the Spirit all the time?" When you are at your job, frustrated over the printer not printing! When you are taking a break from the kids because they are running around and around! When you are looking at your husband wanting to slap him ... how do you submerse yourself in Him?

Well, I believe He answered me. I feel like the air has shifted around me and it is now energized. Energized with love, with purpose and with Him. At any moment, I feel like I can move into a pool of Him. I know He was always here, around me, loving me ... but now I feel like I've gone deeper.

I am screaming at the walls of fear around me. We've talked about it before, that going deeper sometimes makes you feel like you are drowning. But I wonder if that sensation is the walls that we have built up around us. Walls to protect us and stop the love from Him touching us, because at some point we thought He would hurt us. I wonder if that drowning feeling could be those walls imploding on themselves. We no longer need them when we're going deeper, so they start to break up. The false sense of security breaks apart and it takes a moment to get used to ... Him!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Capsizing your boat ....


I was singing along with Misty Edwards, this morning, in my car. The words to "All consuming fire!" were playing loud. At a certain part in the song, I found myself singing capsize us, not baptize us.

Call it what you will - a Freudian slip, my brain playing tricks or a simple slip of the tongue. I call it Holy Spirit speaking to my soul! He is placing His finger on a theme, over and over again in my life. And in lives around me. (See my wonderful friend's blog here)

We have heard, countless times, to jump out of the boat and into the river! I think there is something about that that Papa wants to go deeper with ... literally.

I believe He wants us IN the water. He IS the water, He's not ON the water waiting for us. He IS the water. Deep calls unto deep. Drinking Him in, breathing in Papa, being inside Him. Having Him all around us, swimming in He wondrous presence!

"How deep is your love for us?" - Misty Edwards

Let's not jump out of our boats ... Let's capsize them! Go deeper.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Are you like Moses?


I feel like Papa is continuing to speak to me after reading the latest Awaken post.

The last paragraph of the post mentioned above, is:

"A great awakening is coming . . . be among those who hear the call. It's time to fight a battle that will mean something. A battle of epic proportions. A battle that will make you come more alive than you could ever dream. "

The writer was talking about men and the heavenly planted need to fight, that is inside them. After reading her words, I was lead to the below scripture.

Numbers 12:7 and 8 "But this is not true of my servant Moses; he is faithful in all my house. With him I speak face to face, clearly and not in riddles; he sees the form of the LORD."

Moses a man with faults. A man who killed, who did not have wonderful auditory skills. A man who doubted himself and doubted his God on occasion. A man who beyond all odds, delivered a nation out of captivity. A man, that out of his passionate heart, made a wrong choice and because of that, did not see The Promised Land.

A man that was not the best of men. Who you would not think a great specimen of a leader, he even tried to get out of this role. Nonetheless, he did it. He was a leader. He was a great man.

Why? Because he fought. He fought through his own distrust of himself. He fought through the distrust of the nation he was to save. He fought through the mockery of the Egyptians. He fought through the mockery of the nation he had saved. He fought through his doubts in what they had done. He fought through the desert. He fought through.

Why? Because he knew God. He knew the face of God.

Your God is calling you. Do you see the bush burning out of the corner of your eye, as you focus on the diversion? Do you hear the still, small voice of a Mighty Man whispering your name, ever so softly. It's breaking through the din of the madness around you, isn't it?

There is a new day coming. A new call, that is so very old. Stand up! Arise! Be ready! Fight!

Join together in heaven's court, staring at your General ... face to face. He has a plan.

Jeremiah 51:20 "You are My battle-ax and weapons of war: for with you I will break the nation in pieces; with you I will destroy kingdoms."

Sunday, June 13, 2010

A picture - Women and a Tree ....


We were all represented by a tree trunk. All strong as individuals, having our own struggles and triumphs. On our own though, we were just that - on our own.

So we came together. Turing, moving, growing together. Becoming one tree. Fortified, persevering, reaching up, producing fruit, being unified.

The driving force behind this growing tree, the force inside the tree, the very thing that feeds the tree is Life ... Jesus. He brings us together. In vulnerability, we intertwine with each other, creating something new, something more intimate than before. Something stronger. Together we will reach new heights. Together we will find more growth, more fruit than we would have on our own. Together we can reach further. Fulfilling the call for each of our lives because each of us needs another and another to help us move forth and up.

The old and the young come together, both needed to bring balance to the tree. As new wood grows over the old bark, our foundations are built upon the generations before. Your wisdom, knowledge and depth helps younger women to stand, to maintain strength of our own. One cannot live without the other. If the old bark is left on the tree, it will become brittle. If the tree stays young and new, it will be weak, not able to stand. Together, we are unified. The young in turn, will become the old and what was passed on will bring forth another powerful generation.

Each generation that comes will be more and more unified, intertwined and alive. Alive in Him and alive in the now joined calling of fulfilling our purposes. The destinies that were meant to come together. Like the puzzle pieces that all fit perfectly, to make a bigger picture, we all share a common goal.

A family, a bride, together being groomed for our bridegroom.

He's calling. Reach forth, grab a hand close to you and move together.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

The Gloves are Off ...


Here we are again ... Joined by words, by a common heartbeat and by love. I hope this touches you and brings to you peace and hope in your situation.

I received this word a while ago and feel that I am to post it now. I had asked the question to Papa, "Why does it seem that it is so hard for so many people right now (in their lives)?"

His answer:

"Because the gloves are off! I am no longer waiting around for the enemy to slaughter anymore of My children. I am hitting him back with all I have. I am going after the gusto. Not pulling any punches. I want freedom and I want it now!

A new day is dawning. A new army is rising up. Many will feel as if I am dragging them through it - I am! No longer am I willing to wait - I want freedom.

And so, I am bringing it! Yes, it is still a choice, but many of you made that choice many years ago and I am holding you to it now. My army needs to get out of the barracks and into the fight!

(I instantly saw the scene in Navy Seals when all the training soldiers line up each day to wait on anyone who wants to ring the bell and get out of training.)

"You will not ring that bell! None of you are going to fall or fail! I am here! I am calling out your destinies. I am in charge of everything and I want your hearts, your very souls. No one is going to take you from Me - not even you, yourself. I have you and I am keeping you.

Be encouraged, for My love is all you need.I am cleaning up the cob webs. I am making you perfect. No more fear will remain. Out of the darkness, light will appear. Glory, freedom, a reigning Kingdom of Hope, goodness and truth. Spread the word - Life is here! We are on the threshold and I am going to carry My Bride across it. Come into more intimacy with Me. Come, drink the new wine. You are all My beauties! You are all Mine! Hallelujah! I am here - it has come."

I was directed to some scriptures after receiving this word. Deuteronomy 32: 10 - 12, Psalm 9: 9, 10 and Joshua 1: 2 - 4. In the land of promise, there can still be wilderness. I believe it is essential! In the wilderness, our faith is born and strenthened. Brought to a place that cannot be shaken anymore.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Is your sink empty or full?


I was praying the other day, lead to thoughts of marriage. It seems that many Christians are having trouble in their marriages. I wanted to see what Papa would have me pray about and look to in the scriptures. The following is my view on what I heard Him say:


I was drawn to Ecclesiastes. Solomon exploring the 'world' around him and finding it lacking much, seemed to be what Papa was leading me to. "Vanity of vanities. all is vanity.", he says. I was focusing on that portion of the scripture. I asked what Papa was saying. I believe He was pointing out that we look to things that bring no fruit to our lives, to fulfill it. An idea that has been around for many years.


Laying that thought over the 'relationship of marriage', I realize that the enemy has another back door through which to steal, kill and destroy us, as individuals and in our marriages.


If we are looking to our spouse as a vanity, they will never be able to give us what we need or fill our love banks. Solomon was looking for wisdom, for the meaning of our lives and for strength to survive. He didn't "find one man or woman in a thousand worth his while. Yet (he) did spot one ray of light in this murk: God made men and women true and upright; we're the ones who made a mess of things." - The Message.


And there is the lie that the enemy would have us believe. That those things would be found in a man or a woman ... a spouse. We make messes of things on our own, so how can we find what we need to be fulfilled and feel satisfied in another who messes things up?


I am not saying that our spouses cannot fulfill certain things in us: What I am saying is that EVERYTHING needs to be found in Papa first. My strength, my answers and my meaning in this world is found in Him. In His life, death and life again!


The things that my spouse can give me need to be coming through and from that place in them that is satisfied and fulfilled by Papa too. Therefore, when we fail each other - and we will - we are safely kept from falling because we are kept under His wings.


On the other hand, I also felt that Father was pointing out to me that the things He intended for us and our marriages were forgotten by some. That the intentions of the King that knows all, were deemed untruths and possibly not good enough anymore. That trust was gone. Trusting that even through hard times, He has control and we are always in His hands.


To quote a section of a friend's poem,

"The earth trembles

And even as the pain intensifies

The brokenness reveals a greater glory

A magnificent surrendered beauty

That will not die."


Sometimes, we don't want to wait for the greater glory ... the pain is too much. So maybe we find ourselves looking to other things that fulfill and make us feel happy again. Those things though that we find, are not what Papa intended us to have. They are counterfeit.


I found a section of the Wedding Feast Parable interesting. Matthew 22:2, "The Kingdom of Heaven is like a certain King who arranged a marriage for his son ..." The idea of an arranged marriage, here in the West, sends most of us into a state of fear. What of my choice? My feelings? My love?


Isn't this though what Father does with us if we are surrendered to Him? He arranges us in a life that we may or may not understand at times. We may have to get used to things being a certain way. We may not understand the path ahead. Sometimes we may not even feel happy in the situation He has us in. But we continue on because ...


We

Trust

Him


Along with praying, I received a picture from Papa. It was of a sink that used to be filled right up. The drain has been pulled though and it is empty now.


If this is you, I ask you gently but urgently to look to the Father to put that plug back in and to have Him fill you up again. Look to Him for everything you need and seek Him for the trust you need to get through the hard times.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Come meet Him at the river ....


This was sent to me today, by a dear friend. It is an entry from Kenneth Copeland. It is such truth that I just wanted to post it.


"So often we miss out on what God wants to do for us because He doesn't do it the way we think he should. We work up an idea in our minds about how He's going to heal us, for instance. We think He's going to send some famous preacher to lay hands on us or that He's going to knock us off our feet with a blast of His power. When He doesn't, we let our faith drop and foul up what He has actually planned to do.


That's what Naaman did. He went to Elisha expecting to be healed in a particular way. When it didn't happen that way, the Bible says he went away in a rage.


What Eishal told him to do was simple. Dip seven times in the Jordan. Naaman could do that. But it didn't fit his idea of how his healing should take place. He thought Elisha would heal him by waving his hands around and calling on the Name of the Lord.


Naaman stormed away and he would have missed out on his healing if one of his servants hadn't talked him into giving Elisha's instructions a try.


I used to be like that. I wanted spectacular experiences from God so badly I was missing out on the experience God had planned for me. Once I realized that, I quit looking for feelings and spectacular manifestations and just started expecting God to keep His Word.


I remember I went to a meeting one night with my ankle messed up terribly. The pain was so severe it went from my foot all the way up to my shoulder blades. But I went into that meeting expecting God to heal me.


During the praise service, I ignored the pain in my foot and just sang and worshipped with everyone else. When the preaching started, I got my Bible and got involved in the Word. Sure enough, sometime during that service I was healed. I don't know when it was. I didn't feel anything. I didn't see any sparklers go off. I didn't even realize I'd been healed until after the service. I got about halfway to the door and thought, "Glory to God, my foot's well."


Don't let your own ideas of how God's going to work rob you of your healing or your deliverance or your prosperity. Just trust Him and let Him do things His way. He will work mightily in you."



Come meet Him at the river .....